Mantis 18 (Spring 2020)
Amherst College
Peter Covino
Gas Station, March Night
The front tire, the front tire rod, and stripped tire lock
on the Volkswagen Jetta days before the trade-in, the big call
back, lost title, and the titanic pothole we foundered into
just off the George Washington Bridge in Fort Lee, NJ....
Scam of six stranded cars towed in less than three hours
on a Saturday night when we left the Bar Mitzvah early
to make way to the Sicilian Birthday Party, not a tow truck
to be had and I became a raving lunatic, wanting to be hospitalized.
Seriously, after perhaps the best Bar Mitzvah I’ve ever seen,
(and I’m from LI), where Matthew dedicated his rites to Nana’s
survival out of Hungary—the rest had perished—and to Uncle Lou’s
fighter plane mission into Israel during the Occupation.
Not a tissue to barter in the packed Village Synagogue, with N.’s
mom battling lung cancer, her name called out clearly during
prayers for the sick, Mi Sherbeirach avoteinu. . . . And just yesterday
we graduated college. N’s & W’s parents paid for the festivities—
because my father used checks sparingly, and refused to commit
at first, until he saw the Lord Jeff ’s second-floor party room,
then wadded out a stash of hundreds because the food was good,
the red wine abundant. The guilt I felt for slipping out of the Bar
Mitzvah early—these reunions rarer and rarer, and when we hit
that pothole, driving without glasses, two glasses of wine later
with Dr. Feelgood, my partner, trying to make way to the party,
imagining already I’d whacked him in the face as we careened
toward the gas station and he said No to the first tow trucker
who didn’t have time to tow but offered to help change
the tire, we know how thank you though I never have;
hours later and still no one. My credit card denied
at the convenience store since I had not travel-alerted
the Bank of America about traveling abroad to Fort Lee.
Or wanting to be hospitalized, with the grim reality
of the exorbitant carfare we’d spend back and forth
from the hotel in Manhattan to the gas station
the next morning to retrieve the car, after they fixed
the front end. Traumatized, by flashbacks
of Sister Leonilda hitting me deservedly with a stick
at Wednesday afternoon CCD classes, me hitting back . . . .
Would Dr. Feelgood also need to be hospitalized?
When I noticed his empurpled face? Had I willed
the tire rod to slip? And the barroom cut above his eye,
his face pancaked into the wheel rim? Rage-filled
at my helplessness, I stole paper towels without soap
from the bathroom, hand sanitized. What else could I do?
I enlisted an overzealous, drunk Green Bay Packer’s fan
in his Day-Glo green jacket to stand by the car
and help change the tire, to fix the stripped tire lock
to no avail. At least other cars might see us to prevent
further calamity until the tow truck arrived hours later
in whipping wind, on the night we missed the Sicilian
Birthday Party, the chance to hear my mother tongue and,
not to mention, the doubtless overabundant Sicilian food.
Poet-translator-editor PETER COVINO is an associate professor of English at the U of Rhode Island, and author of the poetry collections, The Right Place to Jump (2012); and Cut Off the Ears of Winter (2005) both from W. Michigan University Press, New Issues. His prizes include a 2019 National Endowment for the Arts Translation Fellowship and the PEN American/Osterweil Award.