Mantis 18 (Spring 2020)
Amherst College

Nina Sudhakar


Dialogue with the Oldest Tree in the U.S., whose Location is a Closely-Guarded Forest Service Secret

stilted woodlands / towering reliquaries

give me more than a whisper passed down

from the heavens / I wish to hear it arise

from the greened inlet of your mouth

& every worshipper gathered incredulous

amongst the woven roots wreathed

in shattered sunlight imagines

the tendrils caressing an open palm

applying a faint pressure reminiscent

of an arriving epiphany / a misplayed chord

in a masterpiece / a droplet signalling rain

an end to drought / the beginning of a flood

& no way to tell the difference —

the swallows prattle on at dusk / shattering

the silence with a story told a thousand times

only I know its origin / the names that were

changed / I am still alive & atoning for a sin

I never witnessed / & sure this world will soften

you up / the ridges redolent of so many hard edges

a mountain range forged from continents that

could not help but touch / & yes you might long

for sleep / to be dispossessed of your body

to forget that every building erects a foundation

for future rubble / if you run the chaff of my living

through somnolence’s sieve & stand in the remains

a patch of safe moonlight / for even the stars

throw down beams that have been seen

somewhere in the universe / your every future

will always be just glimpsed / yet denied by

concentric circles mapping a slow route

to the present where (still) (here) I stand


NINA SUDHAKAR is a writer, poet, and lawyer based in Chicago. She is the author of the poetry chapbooks Matriarchetypes (winner of the 2017 Bird’s Thumb Poetry Chapbook Contest), and Embodiments (forthcoming from Sutra Press). Her work has appeared in The Offing, Ecotone, and elsewhere; for more, see www.ninasudhakar.com.