Mantis 18 (Spring 2020)
Amherst College
Nina Sudhakar
Dialogue with the Oldest Tree in the U.S., whose Location is a Closely-Guarded Forest Service Secret
stilted woodlands / towering reliquaries
give me more than a whisper passed down
from the heavens / I wish to hear it arise
from the greened inlet of your mouth
& every worshipper gathered incredulous
amongst the woven roots wreathed
in shattered sunlight imagines
the tendrils caressing an open palm
applying a faint pressure reminiscent
of an arriving epiphany / a misplayed chord
in a masterpiece / a droplet signalling rain
an end to drought / the beginning of a flood
& no way to tell the difference —
the swallows prattle on at dusk / shattering
the silence with a story told a thousand times
only I know its origin / the names that were
changed / I am still alive & atoning for a sin
I never witnessed / & sure this world will soften
you up / the ridges redolent of so many hard edges
a mountain range forged from continents that
could not help but touch / & yes you might long
for sleep / to be dispossessed of your body
to forget that every building erects a foundation
for future rubble / if you run the chaff of my living
through somnolence’s sieve & stand in the remains
a patch of safe moonlight / for even the stars
throw down beams that have been seen
somewhere in the universe / your every future
will always be just glimpsed / yet denied by
concentric circles mapping a slow route
to the present where (still) (here) I stand
NINA SUDHAKAR is a writer, poet, and lawyer based in Chicago. She is the author of the poetry chapbooks Matriarchetypes (winner of the 2017 Bird’s Thumb Poetry Chapbook Contest), and Embodiments (forthcoming from Sutra Press). Her work has appeared in The Offing, Ecotone, and elsewhere; for more, see www.ninasudhakar.com.